Never has their been a more precious bond than between a father and his sons

this makes me melt. seriously. could they be any cuter?!

done gloating.

round round round round i get around...

i sit here in tears this morning, as my kids rip apart my living room, destroying all my hard work, there's just too much stuff to contend with here. when they go down for their nap im going to be doing some serious downsizing wiht their toys. they're just not all necessary now. and i doubt they'll even notice. we have a whole toy box and three laundry baskets full of stuff. not to mention the riding toys and trucks and cars. ARRRUUUGGGGHHH. if i step on one more matchbox car ill scream. again. i think cabin fever is setting in

i promise to listen more, talk less
learn something new every day
truly pay attention to what im putting into my body
be amazed at all the good one person can do in the world

and not treat dissapointment like failure, its just not the same.

more later when im more awake.

the day after christmas, everyone was content
noone was thinking about the money they spent
the boys played on the floor with their trucks and their blocks
mommy lounged on the couch with her new slipper socks

the kitchens a mess, there's garbage under the tree
but everyones happy especially me
i got to spend time with the family, you see

and thats mostly what christmas means to me.

Two faces to wash, and four dirty hands
Two insistent voices, making demands
Twice as much crying, when things go wrong
The four eyes closing, with slumber song
Twice as many garments, blowing on the line
Two cherubs in the wagon, soaking up sunshine
Work I do for twins, naturally comes double
But four arms to hug me, repay all my trouble.
~Author Unknown

so, even my husbands jeans are tight today, WHAT was in those COOKIES??

yum. thanks everyone who came to the cookie exchange, it was loud rowdy and hetci. but i loved every minute of it. especially where the boys came off their sugar high, and passed out at 7:30 instead of 9

i think everyone today has a massive sugar hangover.

time to wrap the PRESENTS!!! YAY!!!!!

my favorite red and green decorations for the house

my handsome red haired green eyed baby boys!

tis the season

gift (gft)
n.
1. Something that is bestowed voluntarily and without compensation.
2. The act, right, or power of giving.
3. A talent, endowment, aptitude, or inclination.
tr.v. gift·ed, gift·ing, gifts
1. To present something as a gift to.
2. To endow with.

this holiday season has brought about a change in me, infact in many of us.
I've helped touch lives, and in return felt a warmth grow inside my heart thta on a day to day basis, now feels like it may be too big for my chest.

i've recently given away most of the boys baby clothing, some of their accessories that they have out grown, and with it. a small piece of my heart to every family that recieves the gifts that were given to them.
i find no need to hold onto that part of the past(save for a few teensy baby outfits that i put in their hope chests)

oh the feeling of giving, i think i take more pleasure than anyone i help out. i almost feel selfish, for helping out those in need, to satisfy a part of me that sometimes feels a bit lacking.

i've found a calling. don't expect it to stop.

i can hear the bells...

or maybe its all the punk kids with snow days, who insist being outside in subzero temperatures and blistering wind. yep. thats what im hearing. kids, where ARE your mothers? grandmothers? babysitters? legal guardians? its COLD out there. thus the NO school. HELLO???

ah. to be a kid and be immune to cold again.

ill stay snuggled warm inside in the meantime. :)

the tree is up the house is decorated, the kids are trying to dissasemble all my work, ah. its xmas time. let us indulge.

look. my kids on redbull.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqTH5ll1StI


hahah the boys re running around my kitchen in full out circles screaming at the top of their lungs.. if i could locate a camera it would be perfect. alas, he house has once again swallowed something whole. im sure it will be spil out sometime near mayday, or perhaps that every tricky selfproclaimed(mommmy needs a minute or a vailum) day.

okay back to zookeeping.

true friends are always together in spirit

Everybody longs to be part of something, to be accepted as an individual, into a group. don't get me wrong, i have a great existance as a mother and a wife, very exclusive rewarding groups. but i used to find myself needing, wanting to be so much more than the labels ive been given. that is, until recently when i found one special word that has so many levels of meaning, - FRIEND-"A true friend is someone that knows the song of your soul, and
sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
these past few months, i have found an amazing group of friends, who have each others backs without even blinking an eye. when i asked them to participate in helping out one of our own, they NOT ONCE asked , why, but How can i help you and how soon can we do it. I truely am Humbled by these woman, who have helped me find a part of myself i knew was there, but could not seem to make shine. i find myself finding a touch of color in things i never payed attention to and i and definatly looking towards the good things instead of the bad. i find gratitude in things i would of passed off, like the ability to feed my family, to clothe them, that we are able to keep one and other safe, and even the little things like, someone letting me in line in the drive through.

thus i digress. i want to Call each and every one of you woman out. and not with names, you ALL know who you are.

Love you, all of you, whether we've met or not. you ALL have a special place in my heart. and for that im truely greatful.

you know what . i really have nothing to say. how weird is that...

Oh the Weather outside is frightful..

but the fires so delightful, and since we no place to go... let it RAIN?
Okay not that im complaining even an ounce here. but Wheres my beautiful fluffy clean snow?ive got the boys snow suits, coats hats mittens boots, you name it we got it.. and the boys are still able to play in hoodies. what gives? nothing kicks off the holiday season like some of the crystaly fluffy stuff. Instead, over here in buffalo. the snow capital of the east, it drizzles and looks darn right miserable outside.

i'm calling shennanigans on the whole situation.

now excuse me while i turn my christmas cd on and make cocoa and cookies.

psh.

gooooooooood morning world, after an exciting dream session with vampires, my sexy husband, and climbing thru tubes and whirlwind mazes, i find myself much more exhausted than even before i went to sleep. ah to be alive in my dreams, is what i TRUELY live for.. i just wish i could visit a coffee shop while amongst my REM sessions.

i've found myself longing for adventure. a new adventure. lets see what i can come up with now. oh. and if someone wants to donate the Cullens house in the movie twilight... that'd be pretty much tits right now. i'll even do the windows

we're off to see the wizard

Getting ready to go for the day has never been so....slow. Finally an Outing with Most of my friends that have children, all together, in the same place..... What are we crazy? Well ..a lttle but thats besides the point. We're brave, and happy to be parents. We love seeing our children grow and learn and interact with one and other, it gives us a glimpse into what they may be like in the future.
Today i get to see friends ive known a long time, meet new friends, and get to know better some wonderful woman whom i don't get to see too much...

don't you worry.. pictures to come :O)

Can we just talk about something...

So today, in the good nature of my self bettering program, i decided to give some waxing a try. my legs were cake. Time consuming but minimum pain.. so... i decided to give my lady town a shot.. HOLY MOTHER OF #@#$#%#^ OWWW.

if i ever meet the bitch that invented the brazillian wax, im going to slap her from here till Sunday. Of course, being the renegade that i am. i slathered my top half with warm drippy wax, thinking 'ah this too will be cake' WRONG. pulled the first strip off and saw stars, the feeling reminded me slightly of when they took the tape off my c section wound and pulled a staple out with it.. mind you i had five more strips to yank...

someone get me some tequila, and some ice.

Today the sun is shining. its beautiful out. i think it might very well be a better day.

the monkeys have yet to fling poo or get into anyting substancial yet. although they did take the paddle down and are scolding each other with it.. ( do i really look like that when i yell??)

i'm going shopping today for my secret santa gifts. and im SO!!! excited to shop for little girls.

oh. crap. gotta go. monkeys !! NO!!!

waiting..

for thursday to come, waiting for this sonogram is killing me!

it sucks not to know the outcome of what might, or might not be happening inside my body. i guess only time will tell.

keeping happy thoughts is tough right now tho. let me tell you.

im supposed to be taking it easy, doesn't the doctor know there is NO taking it easy with twins around? im exhausted. and when i overdo it i start to cramp. its horrible. its either neglect my kids, or neglect my body...

decisions decisions..

help

use somebody cover.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n267QwfTrOM&feature=player_embedded

this is just beautiful by the way. enjoy

times they are a changing

as are the seaons, it finally looks and smells of fall out there !the boys are outgrowing their size six shoes and fit in the coats my dad got them last year. their still a smidge short for two and three t pants, what can i say, they're so much like their daddy.
things are changing for us too...we've started looking at homes, just to see where we stand. and i suppose we're doing alright. but there has to be a way to make it. so... im going to start selling jewelry and continue to vamp up the hair business!!! who wants to be pretty?!!

note: pretty includes me, from this day on i promise the world i wont leave without lipgloss!!!!!!