Oh the Weather outside is frightful..

but the fires so delightful, and since we no place to go... let it RAIN?
Okay not that im complaining even an ounce here. but Wheres my beautiful fluffy clean snow?ive got the boys snow suits, coats hats mittens boots, you name it we got it.. and the boys are still able to play in hoodies. what gives? nothing kicks off the holiday season like some of the crystaly fluffy stuff. Instead, over here in buffalo. the snow capital of the east, it drizzles and looks darn right miserable outside.

i'm calling shennanigans on the whole situation.

now excuse me while i turn my christmas cd on and make cocoa and cookies.

psh.

gooooooooood morning world, after an exciting dream session with vampires, my sexy husband, and climbing thru tubes and whirlwind mazes, i find myself much more exhausted than even before i went to sleep. ah to be alive in my dreams, is what i TRUELY live for.. i just wish i could visit a coffee shop while amongst my REM sessions.

i've found myself longing for adventure. a new adventure. lets see what i can come up with now. oh. and if someone wants to donate the Cullens house in the movie twilight... that'd be pretty much tits right now. i'll even do the windows

we're off to see the wizard

Getting ready to go for the day has never been so....slow. Finally an Outing with Most of my friends that have children, all together, in the same place..... What are we crazy? Well ..a lttle but thats besides the point. We're brave, and happy to be parents. We love seeing our children grow and learn and interact with one and other, it gives us a glimpse into what they may be like in the future.
Today i get to see friends ive known a long time, meet new friends, and get to know better some wonderful woman whom i don't get to see too much...

don't you worry.. pictures to come :O)

Can we just talk about something...

So today, in the good nature of my self bettering program, i decided to give some waxing a try. my legs were cake. Time consuming but minimum pain.. so... i decided to give my lady town a shot.. HOLY MOTHER OF #@#$#%#^ OWWW.

if i ever meet the bitch that invented the brazillian wax, im going to slap her from here till Sunday. Of course, being the renegade that i am. i slathered my top half with warm drippy wax, thinking 'ah this too will be cake' WRONG. pulled the first strip off and saw stars, the feeling reminded me slightly of when they took the tape off my c section wound and pulled a staple out with it.. mind you i had five more strips to yank...

someone get me some tequila, and some ice.

Today the sun is shining. its beautiful out. i think it might very well be a better day.

the monkeys have yet to fling poo or get into anyting substancial yet. although they did take the paddle down and are scolding each other with it.. ( do i really look like that when i yell??)

i'm going shopping today for my secret santa gifts. and im SO!!! excited to shop for little girls.

oh. crap. gotta go. monkeys !! NO!!!

waiting..

for thursday to come, waiting for this sonogram is killing me!

it sucks not to know the outcome of what might, or might not be happening inside my body. i guess only time will tell.

keeping happy thoughts is tough right now tho. let me tell you.

im supposed to be taking it easy, doesn't the doctor know there is NO taking it easy with twins around? im exhausted. and when i overdo it i start to cramp. its horrible. its either neglect my kids, or neglect my body...

decisions decisions..

help

use somebody cover.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n267QwfTrOM&feature=player_embedded

this is just beautiful by the way. enjoy

times they are a changing

as are the seaons, it finally looks and smells of fall out there !the boys are outgrowing their size six shoes and fit in the coats my dad got them last year. their still a smidge short for two and three t pants, what can i say, they're so much like their daddy.
things are changing for us too...we've started looking at homes, just to see where we stand. and i suppose we're doing alright. but there has to be a way to make it. so... im going to start selling jewelry and continue to vamp up the hair business!!! who wants to be pretty?!!

note: pretty includes me, from this day on i promise the world i wont leave without lipgloss!!!!!!

Financial Duress...

oh. the joys of money, or lack there of. on one hand i get to spend LOTS of time at home with the family. But i just CANT seem to get a hold on our budget. we try to cook and do things at home and be money savvy, but somewhere its going awry. It's hard to cook and clean and balence checkbooks and get everything paid on time. And if the moneys not there, it's just not there. My husband does a beautiful job of working hard and briging it home. but the bills are higher than the income.

So... here's my vow to do better this october, to have at least $200 in the bank left over so im not pulling my hair out and crying to my mommy.

Does anyone have any ideas? ANYONE!!

Procrastination.

May as well be my middle name, and the internet a tool of lucifer. Every day at naptime i have a to do list a mile long. What do i do? Sit on the internet! This weekend the computer is going OFF OFF OFF,( except to pay bills, and sneak a peak at my blog, play on photoshop, oh and catch up on face book..) ...see what i mean. HELP is there a therapy group or something i can join? meanwhile my kids get slightly ignored and the house gets(stays) messier. okay. for real. im off to clean up. Really.. REALLY!! ... after i finish reading those 6 other posts about people i dont really know and Their problems with cleaning up too....

My car broke twice today. Awesome.

First day of..

FALLing ..in love with my husband over again

FALLing apart at the seams

FAlling for my innervoices yelling, "don't clean the house the knomes will do it
overnight while i'm sleeping"

FALLing over all the toys left out by my darling monkeys

FALLing down the rabbit hole

FALLing through the looking glass, seeing my life as it really is,FALLing into place

happy first day of fall..

i wonder what this semester of life will bring?

the crispness in the air, bonfires, leaves changing color, boots and peacoats, my heart almosts bursts, can't you hear it beating in time with the wind? i think it's changing.

Your Smile...

Just Melts me Inside


Makes my Heart Sing


Your curosity makes my heart swell with pride



Who knew that these two little miracles could change the very existance that i know?


Cole and Alexander your a day away from 19 months old!!! wowie! where has all the time gone?

Alexander, at 19 months you say shoes, more, juice, all done all gone, bye bye , love carrots and apple juice, pretzels and Hummus, love to cuddle and dance , spoke first, walked second, and steal the hearts of anyone you come across

Coleybear, you say uh oh like its your job, you climb and run and jump and bounce off anything you can climb on to. LOVE the cheese off of pizza, sneak soda pop when were not looking, and love to share with your brother and make him feel better when he's sad.

Could i ask for sweeter kids? i think not!

How to survive a sick baby

#1 Have a strong connection with your husband, i swear we keep each other sane. He's my rock. and i am his Xanax. lol.

#2 Laugh so you don't cry at the 13 hours of Whining Crying Med refusing hot sweaty little boy

#3 Have a little Faith, i don't care to whom or what you pray to. but when there are no other options, you know i'm there.

#4 Never Ever take your parents for granted, boy to they come in handy when your panicing.. thanks Mama papa dad, Mikeand Ellie

Xander pants was a little feverish on saturday, by sunday morning he was spiking a fever of 103.7 and refusing anything to eat or drink. We took him into the pediatrician who decided he may or may not have Strep Throat (he's to young for it, It's hard to say, Blah Blah Blah..) She proceeded to perscribe an antibiotic and suggested lots of rest. He did pretty well all day afterwords, today on the otherhand... Awful. didn't want anything AGAIN to eat or drink( we got some gingerale down him, by putting it in a doctor pepper bottle. haha took a nap with him. woke up.. 104.2 WHAT!!! Isn't ibuproferin and antibiotics supposed to make him feel better? my tired, quiet, lethargic , listless baby boy layed their and wimpered. After half hour of scrambling to do any and everything i could possibly do to make him better, he snapped out of it and was suddenly dancing and eating rasins.


Phew....

Not having a computer sucks

Home from Vacation and....

I'm Totally and Utterly Exhausted.. isn't that how it's supposed to be though? And to think, the kids didn't miss me at all! It makes me sad to think about how much they are growing up and how much more independant they are now. They barely looked up from their toys when i walked in this morning. (sniffle)
But....our mini weekend away was grand in itself. i enjoyed the heck out of spending a night away with my Knight in Shining Armor, We battled long wait lines and conquered the fastest coasters, all in a days work of course.. and don't forget the barbaric Turkey Leg! yum yum yum yum yum. We got to eat whatever we wanted without having to share or have baby fingers snatching and running away. And.... i got to enjoy most of my coffee while my father in law chased the kids around his yard for the last bit of the morning.

We got home and there was a Labor day parade at the foot of our street so we strapped the kids in the stroller and scooted on down to enjoy the togies(horses) and the tuck tuck (fire trucks) , and get belted with gobs of treats rained down by each parade float and member of the election boards yes they were out shaking hands and kissing babies, lol

after about an hour and some sticky candy smudged tear stained cheeks, the boys went down for their nap...and didn't get up for....3 and 1/2 hours!!!!!! thanks babies. this crazy lady needed a little longer to rest.

ill post up a beautiful picture of my three favorite men,as soon as the computer stops being uncooperative.

Good Night Neverland.

..Grounded...

Some days i spend all day dreaming myself out of my home, into the world around me. Dreaming of the possibilities and places i could be, should be , would be if i did not happen to be tied down by that little thing called my life. I often think that i could be sailing in Greece or working as a color artist in London or France, living up to my "potential".

The last few weeks i found myself dreaming of my life, at home with my family, and i couldn't be more "at home" in my thoughts. Something inside me lately finds me very much rooted to the spot that i have made into a home. I am truely in a Love affair with everything that is my life , i am passionate about my friends , family, and duties as a wife and lover. I feel the pull of mother earth with every whisper of the changing seasons. It grasps at every new feeling, new lesson learned..holds onto every pearl of laughter let go by my darling monkeys. I feel Change happening, and its telling me to live and grow with everything that is ...ME..

Oh What a night.

So girls night went fabulously as planned! It was wonderful to be away from the kids. Every mom deserves a small break to just be free , not have to watch her mouth and just talk a bout everything. Well let me tell you, my girls know how to make ya feel gooooood. the trip out to ski country was beautiful, there were No dead deer on the road( they tend to bring my mood down a smidge), singing to all of our favorite old songs,and the food and Drinks were AMAZING. It's so much easier to connect when you are an hour from home. oh, and we decided on an incentive trip to.... VEGAS BABY!!!

Dinner the other night went amazing. ill put the recipe and pictures up soon. Thanks to my girls for a great and memorable evening

oh.. and just because they are cute...Roley poley Coley

Captain Alexander pants

See?? adorable

Channeling Julia Childs...

Alright folks, brace yourselves, i'm going to learn to cook....(insert hysterical laughter).
I bought my first real cookbook and as we speak my husband and i are going through it trying to find the ones with the least instructions. so far the scallop burgers and the chicken and bean roll ups with avacado dipping sauce are at the top. two nights a week im going to try my hand at a new recipe and let ya know how it goes. Wish me ( and my family) luck.