words from the heart

'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
It is our light ,not our darkness that most frightens us we ask ourselves
who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?

actually who are you not to be?

you are a child of god
your playing small does not serve the world
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people wont feel insecure around you

we are born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us
its not just in some of us, it's in everyone
as we let our light shine
we unconciously give other people permission to do the same
as we are liberated from our fears
our presence automatically liberates others- marianne williamson

weekend rundown.

My oh My did we have a fun filled weekend, the monkeys behaved,(mostly) and we got to catch up on everyones lives, friday night we just hung out as mike had to work saturday morning, but saturday night was a great time at the casino buffet with mike and his parents, who dress up nice if i do say so myself. Dad got to spend some time with the wondertwins, and i think he appreciates how much work i do all day long. Mikeys brother took up babysitting sat evening and off to see some old friends we went.

Sunday i was brave and had ten little kids running around here at the crazy house. thats 100 fingers to get into things, 10 mouths to screech, and 10 smiles playing nicely together, while the parents got to better know each other. no accidents, no tears,(mostly) and everyone was pooped out by the end of the dance party. boy i am starting to get the hang of this mom thing. especially finding the balence between mom and me

only 3 months till my little cousin comes to stay for the summer. it'll be great to have her here And ill get a preview of teenagerdom

and so the story goes::

Once upon a time, there was a mommy who worked so hard to clean, that she ended up spinning in full circles, getting dizzy and overwhelmed and decided going to sleep was the better option. good night.

flight of the monkeys.

Have you ever witnessed a flock of birds take flight, i mean Thousands of birds at once? it truely is remarkable, the air looks as if its full of energy, shifting and moving in sync, but never losing sight of where each set of wings are.

i wish life moved as slowly as that

today went great, until it didnt. came home had a great walk with the kids, my shoulder started to hurt, i got cranky, mike got cranky to match. the kids got crankier, alex got his hand pinched in the door. and now everyones sitting on the couch ignoring each other. yay.

maybe tomorrow will be seamless. maybe.

did you know??

thanks for the idea mrs b!!

ask me anything! come on i know you've all got questions. ill answer honestly , honest.

March. make a real difference

you know, i've never thrown myself into anything crazy, not in a long time. i havent shown terrible interest in anything unknown, but this week, ive started collecting for the March of Dimes, why? because it makes a huge difference to some tiny people. ones that cant help themselves, that are vulnerable and weak, but fighters none the same.

did you ever wonder what good the money you spent on that coffee or that bag of chips could Really do?

i tell ya what. with that money, i can help babies born to early LIVE , to grow up to be teachers, peace keepers, world leaders.

but only if someone like me finds the time to throw myself into it.

We are doing the march of dimes for a friend whos baby did NOT make it, in Sadies memory. We will walk because that is all her mommy can do to try and make it right. it gives her a little hope to hold onto, knowing that maybe she can be someone elses angel.

come on guys, join me in the march of dimes just by clicking here, donate $5 $1 even,in your kids name, and know that you helped make a difference

are we really happy with who we are right now?

no new pictures to throw on up right this minute, but however i am going to TWO awesome concerts in the new few months( ya see.. this mom/grownup/housewife/responsible sensible me needs to be caged sometimes to let ME back out.. so i'm going to see paramore with my sister in columbus in may, and in april the hubbs and i are going to see Alexisonfire. oh. im so pumped. they are fantastic live. FANTASTIC. i only wish they were touring with .Moneen. still ...sigh. okay.

on a mom related side, the kids are on the mend. they had a lovley playdate today, minimal tantrums over who got the choo coo or truck. :O)

a lesson in being mom

almost everything can be fixed with a bowl of icecream

Friday Already?!

oh my word am i tired, what a long day its turing out to be today.

Last night was my first Mommys night out! it was superb! We had Chocolate Covered Strawberry Martinis, and tasty apple cream cheese sammiches. boy oh boy. it was fabulous to be out of the house, and with people that understand being a mom. i can't wait for the next one at Taste in East Aurora. (pictures to follow) :) as for me.. its naptime.

Too Cute Tuesday

The boys had their first big kid play date at the mall today. they had a ball. as you can see. they fought over the girl :O)

My boys Turned two, never have i ever been prouder, they can talk so much more , climb higher, yell louder, compete against other for attention, feed themselves, dress(sort of) themselves, watch a tv show for a solid half hour. and give real hugs and kisses.

oh i made quite the pair, and oh, i never knew i could love anything so much, until i loved them even more

Double the pleasure
Double the fun
Double the chaos
with 2, not just 1.

Double the groceries
Double the food
Double the clothes
They both outgrew.

Double the treasure
It's only just begun
The joy they bring together
will never be outdone.

Happy 2nd Birthday boys Mommy and Daddy Love you Very Very much

a blog award to brighten up my day

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Enjoy spreading a little sunshine girls!!

Good morning blog world, i only have a few moments, but just wanted to update,

Nana is doing better, yesterday they had her up and out of bed for a while gaining some stregnth in her new bionic woman style hip. itll be a bit of recovery thats for sure.but here's to hoping its a swift one.

im waiting for my husband to get out of the shower so i can head back out to the hospital to check on her today.

Why is it we always get the GOOD with the BAD?

i called my mom today to tell her all about my new job, and she tells me shes taking my nana to the hospital because she fell down the stairs and probably broke her hip.

talk about a debbie downer. im waiting for my husband to get home so i can join them at the hospital. i promise ill update you all on it soon

please keep her in your prayers, she'll need them the poor daffy woman.

got a job

got a job got a job job job

fancy pants, super duper cool job

job i've been waiting years for

can you tell im giddy?

YAYAYAYAYAYAY

rain, or... mommy bRAIN

Rain by Shel Silverstein

I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.

this is how i feel today. like things are sloshing around

can ya blame me?

hey sandman, where ya at?

Today, i would really like the boys to simmer down and take a nap. I'm still getting better from whatever the heck i did to my tonsils by trying to get yucky stuff unstuck. yea. great idea. and i would kill for a minute to myself, well.. maybe not kill.. but risk my kids losing their voices just to get a minutes peace around here.

Anywho. they're both SCREECHING at the tippy top of their lungs at the unjustice i have caused them by placing them in their very nice very comfy cribs with their doggys and a fan going. HOW DARE I provide them with the nap they need to prevent a nuclear melt down around dinner time, cuz no mom in this house will dare give them a nap at five pm, only to have them raring to go at say... 11:30 pm. nope, not me.

So if any of you are good at astral projection, can you please mosey on into their rooms and tell them"hey, it's alright, everyone needs a nap, the world would be a much better place!" cuz if I go in there it's all over. We start from square one.

i'll let it go for 20 minutes to see if Cole takes a chill pill, or exhausts himself.

thought for the week

Keep what is worth keeping and with the BREATH OF KINDNESS blow the rest away.

well i missed a post yesterday

and dont have much to vent about today other than some people are so involved in themselves that they dont believe you when you say your sick. i didnt feel like being around a party full of people all evening, and i wasnt about to bring the kids to chase either. kiss my butt. im sick. it's nothing against you, unless of course you want my flu or whatever the crap this is.. cuz seriously... you can have it.

there. i feel better

the dreaded time out

today alex was in a mood, the kind of mood where ya looked at him and he came out swinging.
he swung in fact, and clocked his brother right in the dome. well.. i cant let this go on, so i place him in our time out chair. not only was he outraged at this, but his brother was sad that he was in trouble, so he sat at the foot of the chair, and they both cried... nevertheless, they both sat there until the time ran out.. alex got down, and his brother smacked him back. nothing like delayed gratifacation... and we repeat the process.. four times.. sigh...